Unfortunate quandary

In a sharp contrast to my usual way of sinking into the storm of thoughts and trying to maintain the state of mind, I decided to instill the calmness of tons of storms in me and have a No Mind state.
Sounds bizarre?!  Perhaps.

I am still. Yet again. And in this stillness, one thing dawns upon me....
Moments are always nuetral. Feelings become grotesque. Figments screw things up.

The problem with mind is that it can conjure up boundaries and also have eternal longings for the soul. So, what do you do next?

Penetrate through the boundaries and chuck the longings.
And here you are! The most fictional character of your own lifetime.
Such an unfortunate quandary!